Waiting Me Out

by Jared Knapik

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1.
Tell me all about the weather where you are Is it colder than you thought? Did you make it there by dark? I was certain I would hear from you, but didn't hear a thing You packed up all your pictures, but don't remember anything You don't miss a thing about your home No, you don't ever think of where you're from You don't ever lie awake at night and think about your former life No, you don't have to tell me I was wrong No, darling, I have known this all along I'm sorry I am the way I am But you're the only you Now I'm sure you must be settled in your place I'm sure you're making lots of friends and going out on lots of dates Just don't forget who waved you goodbye on the day you drove away You smashed your rear-view mirror so you wouldn't see a thing You don't miss a thing about your home No, you don't ever think of where you're from You don't ever lie awake at night and think about your former life No, you don't have to tell me I was wrong No, darling, I have known this all along I'm sorry I am the way I am But you're the only you If you cared at all, you never showed it You are sharp but you don't catch on quick You've meant the world to me but never known it You've been gone for months but it's felt like years I don't hear from you but you're loud and clear This distance was no accident, I see Our lives pass by, my dear, now, without a word If you want me hurt, well then I am hurt This silence has been deafening to me You don't miss a thing about your home No, you don't ever think of where you're from You don't ever lie awake at night and think… No, you don't have to tell me I was wrong No, darling, I have known this all along I'm sorry I am the way I am But you're the only you Honey, we're older now You're living over the ocean now In a week I will be in town Do you think we could just sit down? Maybe order some coffee now Have one of our long talks now But you don't remember me No, you have forgot me now
2.
More, I just can't take no more of this I've had my fill, now I’m calling it quits But still, it's hard to come to grips with this Time has taught me nothing but despair And I miss you even more than I can bear I wrote you out a letter telling how I'm glad we met But you left before you read it, maybe some things are better left unsaid I'll never let another know me like you do It was you, dear, if it's anyone at all Drove, I drove coast to flee from this City's haunting memories of you See, I sat out by the sea to see Just how truly lonely I could be Even the night was lonely next to me I wrote you out a letter telling how I'm glad we met But you left before you read it, maybe some things are better left unsaid I'll never let another know me like you do It was you, dear, if it's anyone at all I'm not sure why you had to go I’m not sure I will ever know If you want to you can keep your secrets to yourself And should our paths cross down the line Should they pass or intertwine There will always be a torn and tattered place for you with me I wrote you out a letter telling how I'm glad we met But you left before you read it, maybe some things are better left unsaid I'll never let another know me like you do It was you and only you And this heart of stone is hardened up for now and ever more And this life of mine was hard enough without you pouring salt over the sore I'll never let another know me like you do It was you, my dear If it's anyone at all… You, dear, if it's anyone at all It was you, dear, if it's anyone at all
3.
All the things I never told you Will never see the light of day Like how I always loved your smile And how I wish you would've stayed I couldn't bring myself to tell you You never seemed to want to hear And now the final nail is in the coffin and my last chance has been put to rest I will change the names and places So you don't have to live with that All our talks are spoken And all our time was stolen All these years now gone to waste Still I, I'm so glad we met but It killed me when you left me Maybe someday you'll remember But I won't hold my breath All the things I never showed you All are long since packed away I couldn't hang on you no longer No, I got tired of the wait I just can't bring myself to move on, but know I cannot stay the same So where's that leave me now? I'm somewhere in between I'm somewhere I cannot remain I've never had a mind for faces But yours I never could forget All our talks are spoken And all our time was stolen All these years now gone to waste Still I, I'm so glad we met but It killed me when you left me Maybe someday you'll remember But I won't hold my breath Oh, I wish you'd want to see me, but know it's not the case And that I have to live with, and with that I've made my peace But if ever you should change your mind and want to meet You know just how to find me Yeah, you know where I'll be But I can't promise how I'll be then After all this defeat I might've had to build a wall around where you were In my heart to set you free… As long as we're apart, I I'll always be broken From forever to the grave Still I, I'm so glad we met but It killed me when you left me Maybe someday you'll remember But I won't hold my breath No, I won't hold my breath I will be quietly trying to forget
4.
What a perfect ending to an awful year To watch you pack and disappear Now things are quiet, and they've settled down But your ghost still haunts the shadows of this ever-haunted town Just take a minute Just take a breath You can climb on down from inside your head Were you tortured the same way I am by things you want to say? Were you lost until you found the things you lost along the way? But hours in an ambulance will never dull the pain These scars you have to live with I just wanted you to know, but never knew the way I'm clear inside my head, but never know just what to say And here it goes again, heart breaks as it's on the mend If misery loves company, then why is no one here with me? Did you pull away from everybody else? Always rejecting anybody's help Did you wake up in the gutter and wonder how it got so bad? Did you clean yourself and crawl out the next day to wander back? A life spent in the hospital made me a nervous wreck These scars you have to live with, from your heart up to your neck I just wanted you to know, but never knew the way I'm clear inside my head, but never know just what to say And that's the way it goes, heart breaks as I overdose If misery loves company, then why is no one here with me? Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh And that's the way it goes, heart breaks as I overdose again Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh I wrote you on your birthday, but didn't hear from you on mine I finally get the message, you won't hear from me next time No, I never meant to bother, or be the thorn stuck in your side I'll leave you here in peace, my dear… I can run from this no longer, no matter how I try You burn inside my memory for the rest of my hard life Though I never will forget you, you don't have to fear I hear you when you say to me, "There's nothing for you here" There's nothing for you here There's nothing for you here No, there's nothing for you here
5.
All this time and nothing's changed I'm still wrapped around your finger, I'm still bound by all these chains The days and nights, oh, they all just feel the same I'm a glutton for your punishment, madly in love with pain Curse this heart of mine And its stranglehold over my life Oh, I didn't always know the things I sure as hell know now I was so naive for all these years, my head up in the clouds All the while I thought I was waiting for you to come around But little did I know what I know now That you were waiting me out Take these words I never found Darling, pry the from this hollow chest, this prison cell of bone and flesh And wait, just wait, 'til my blood is all you taste Maybe then you will remember just what you gave away Or maybe you don't mind Me tossing and turning through my life Oh, I didn't always know the things I sure as hell know now I was so naive for all these years, my head up in the clouds All the while I thought I was waiting for you to come around But little did I know what I know now That you were waiting me out I cry but not too loud I try to keep it down But what's the difference now? I lost you long before you were ever found Oh, I didn't always know the things I sure as hell know now I was so naive for all these years, my head up in the clouds All the while I thought I was waiting for you to come around But little did I know what I know now That you were waiting me out You were waiting me out I sure as hell know now, that you were waiting me out
6.
You cut your hair, as if it weren't hard enough already to picture your face You are fading every single day, my dear The blackest hair to match your heart and help you disappear Out in the twilight, or just anywhere but here Or just anywhere but here… You were more to me than words could ever say And my heart just can't convey And time will never change But I cared for you like I just can't explain But you never felt the same Now as strangers drift apart Just like time you slipped away I hear your voice, but it isn't quite the same, and now something's changed It's just an echo of a distant memory I shout out into the night, but just the howling wind Answers me, and nothing else, you couldn't wait You couldn't wait to be anywhere but here… You were more to me than words could ever say And my heart just can't convey And time will never change But I cared for you like I just can't explain But you never felt the same Now as strangers drift apart Just like time you slipped away I hope you never have to know the way this feels I hope no one ever leaves your heart with its vacancy light always on But its doors and windows boarded up for good Please just treasure what you took This soul of mine is hardened to the grave But a heart of stone still breaks… And feels… And aches… And reels… Oh, my dear, if I could I would change Oh, I've run and run but can't escape How I cared for you like I just can't explain But you never felt the same Now as strangers drift apart Just like time you slipped away (And so you want it, so it shall be Not another word spoken, not another time seen Never again will I question if I think you'd want to meet And should your heart change down the line Then you'll know how it's felt all this time And for certain, you won't wonder Why surely I'll be gone)

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released December 6, 2019

Music and Lyrics by Jared Knapik
Engineered by Chris Teti at Silver Bullet Studios
Mastered by Bill Henderson at Azimuth Mastering
Bass Guitar by Dan Bogosian
Drums by Tyler Young
Photography by Ben Wagner

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Jared Knapik is a songwriter from Northern Connecticut.

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